{"id":13762,"date":"2024-04-04T05:41:11","date_gmt":"2024-04-04T04:41:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=13762"},"modified":"2024-12-07T03:29:22","modified_gmt":"2024-12-07T03:29:22","slug":"mental-health-recovering-from-a-false-accusation","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=13762","title":{"rendered":"MENTAL HEALTH: Recovering From a False Accusation"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"599\" height=\"846\" src=\"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/04\/img_9531-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-13761\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/04\/img_9531-2-1.jpg 599w, http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/04\/img_9531-2-1-212x300.jpg 212w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 599px) 100vw, 599px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\"><em>Sketch for a Monument of Disappointed Justice<\/em>, Gillray.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Way back in January, 2023, a false accusation was made against me. The accusation was thrown out of court and I was acquitted <em>just one week ago yesterday<\/em>. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In the intervening <em>fourteen months<\/em> I\u2019ve developed certain mental habits; such as running over the events continually, in my mind, and worrying about the taint of such charges clinging to me even if\/when found innocent. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It\u2019s 5.23 am, as I type this. I woke up about 4.45, and went for my usual middle of the night pee. But I haven\u2019t been able to get back to sleep. Why? Because the desire to \u2018clear my name\u2019 is still bothering me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I suspect I will eventually fall asleep again. Because I\u2019m <em>utterly shattered<\/em>. Having this source of anxiety hanging over me for over a year hasn\u2019t been conducive to calm, happiness or general well-being. And the permanent exhaustion is, I believe, just one aspect of the depression it\u2019s brought on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Another aspect of the ill-effects is demotivation. Why bother striving to achieve stuff, if everything just turns to shit? And this is esp\u2019 and doubly the case when there seems to be zero fuel in the tank. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All of this side of things rather inclines me towards seeking redress, for defamation of character and loss of earnings, if nothing else. That said, I want all this shit to cease and go away <em>entirely<\/em>, so I can get back to being happy and contented, as I had been, very unusually for me, circa <a href=\"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=4427\">late 2021<\/a>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And that won\u2019t happen, of course, if I put it all front and centre by pursuing a Civil Case. Hmmm!?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Way back in January, 2023, a false accusation was made against me. The accusation was thrown out of court and I was acquitted just one week ago yesterday. In the intervening fourteen months I\u2019ve developed certain mental habits; such as running over the events continually, in my mind, and worrying about the taint of such &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=13762\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;MENTAL HEALTH: Recovering From a False Accusation&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/paGwUa-3zY","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13762"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13762"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13762\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25205,"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13762\/revisions\/25205"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13762"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13762"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13762"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}