{"id":15615,"date":"2024-05-13T09:11:54","date_gmt":"2024-05-13T08:11:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=15615"},"modified":"2024-05-14T07:16:10","modified_gmt":"2024-05-14T06:16:10","slug":"health-wellbeing-rest-recovery-vs-the-demands-of-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=15615","title":{"rendered":"HEALTH & WELLBEiNG: Rest & Recovery vs The Demands of Life"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Weird \u2018Pop Art\u2019 version of Goya\u2026<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Part I<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Since the collapse of the charges brought against me in Jan \u201823, and my subsequent acquittal, one might have hoped for a return to a prior state of affairs. And I suppose to some extent that is<\/em> happening.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But it\u2019s also true that – just as something has happened during the Covid period; something still as yet undefined\/undiagnosed – that has negatively impacted my physical health, so too have these events caused, so it seems, lasting damage to my mental health. And possibly to Teresa\u2019s also. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

One of the most obvious manifestations of this, at present, is my constant (chronic?) hyper-exhaustion. I went to bed at 7.30 last night. And was soon fast asleep. I\u2019ve had wakeful spells in the subsequent 12+ hours. But in essence I\u2019ve slept most of that time. And could very easily continue to do so. And would much prefer to do so.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But shit needs to get done. The daily demands of earning an income, paying bills, and other onerous stuff (e.g. a pending speeding fine). <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The blunt and unpalatable truth of the matter is that, right now, I\u2019d prefer sleep\/oblivion\/death, to what life asks of me. And far from rising to the challenges of life, I feel utterly crushed and spent. I have no fuel in the tank.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t want to repeat the \u2018sins of my father\u2019, so to speak. But I can, in some respects, understand how he feels. And I feel, whether I like it or not – and on this score I don\u2019t like it – cut from the same damaged cloth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There are so many things I want to get down, in relation to all this. For example, how the Amazon Flex work, whilst in some respects suiting my current circs admirably, is in other ways awful. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s good cause it\u2019s flexible, not too demanding, and gets me out. It\u2019s less good \u2018cause I\u2019m not earning enough, and it\u2019s so heavily reliant on\/demanding of constant screen-time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It feels like it promotes addictive\/compulsive reliance on tech, rather like potential addictions to social media, such as FB. I feel I ought to wean myself off all such stuff, including the \u2018I spend therefore I am\u2019 m.o. our materialist capitalism so sedulously promotes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But I feel powerless to do so. I\u2019m not even King Canute, trying to face down the waves. Rather, I\u2019m more like a grain of sand, helplessly tossed on the tides of the times we live in. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

To find fault with things as they are, and wish for better or different – whilst on some levels both natural, useful, poss\u2019 even laudable – is also to condemn oneself to disappointment and ultimately bitterness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As Sting sang, in \u2018Consider Me Gone\u2019, many moons ago, \u2018To search for perfection, Is all very well, But to look for heaven, Is to live here in hell.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Goya\u2019s disturbing original.*<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Part II<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Well, there\u2019s some of the problems or issues I\u2019m facing. What about solutions? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The most obvious and tempting to me is simply to obey mind and body, and sleep. But whilst I expect that doing so is – up to a point – the right thing. Beyond that point it might simply make things worse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Knowing where that point is, esp\u2019 when not in the best way physically or mentally, isn\u2019t easy. But I fear I\u2019m already there. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Solutions!? Eating better, exercising, and all the daily minutiae of living life well, seem obvious. As do cultivating positive habits of mind and body. Practice positivity. Gratitude, etc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The thing is, I know about all of this. Have done all along. Just can\u2019t seem to put it into practice. I suppose baby steps; little but often. All that malarkey\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Part III<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Well, just coming up on 11am, and, having allowed myself to go back to sleep, I\u2019m rudely summoned from this blissful state by\u2026 a bitcoin\/PayPal scammer\u2019s automated telephone call.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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As Blur had it, on one of their album covers, modern life is rubbish!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

* Allegedly transferred from a mural on his wall, to canvas. How!?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Part I Since the collapse of the charges brought against me in Jan \u201823, and my subsequent acquittal, one might have hoped for a return to a prior state of affairs. And I suppose to some extent that is happening. But it\u2019s also true that – just as something has happened during the Covid period; … <\/p>\n

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