{"id":18350,"date":"2024-06-19T09:34:50","date_gmt":"2024-06-19T08:34:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=18350"},"modified":"2024-06-19T09:50:36","modified_gmt":"2024-06-19T08:50:36","slug":"health-wellbeing-more-bugger-balls","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=18350","title":{"rendered":"HEALTH & WELLBEiNG: (More) Bugger Balls!"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Dammit!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve been drinking small amounts of alcky-hole, in the last week to ten days. By and large it\u2019s been ok. Small amounts, and I\u2019m alright.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But on at least two occasions, last night being one such, I went too far. I\u2019ve got a bit of a sore throat. And that and my general low mood prompted me to buy another small bottle o\u2019 Napoleon brandy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And, predictably enough, just like last time, this proved foolish. Fortunately only extreme depression, loathsome tidal waves of self-pity, and a heightened desire to quit this wearisome life were all that followed. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I say \u2018fortunately\u2019 there, when perhaps one might wonder why, because it could\u2019ve been a lot worse. I could\u2019ve relapsed into other worse forms of self-abuse. I could\u2019ve blown more money, that, as ever, I don\u2019t have.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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My downfall\u2026<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

I wound up waking up at 3am, this morning, and having yet another chat – they\u2019re daily at present – with The Samaritans. This time over an hour long.*<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I worked yesterday, and that part of the day was good-ish. But sandwiched between extreme depression, total a-motivation, and a newly arrived weird sore throat, it didn\u2019t stop me from re-lapsing into alcohol abuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So it\u2019s back to tee-total, for the fore-seeable. Perhaps for good? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Teresa overheard some of my telephonic misery, about which I feel pretty awful. One good outcome of that, however, is that she\u2019s taken a day off, \u2018compassionate leave\u2019, to keep an eye on me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Vintage BG silliness.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

* If I ever attain sufficient levels of stability and happiness- not looking too likely, to be honest – maybe one day I could volunteer as a Samaritan listener? <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dammit! I\u2019ve been drinking small amounts of alcky-hole, in the last week to ten days. By and large it\u2019s been ok. Small amounts, and I\u2019m alright. But on at least two occasions, last night being one such, I went too far. I\u2019ve got a bit of a sore throat. And that and my general low … <\/p>\n

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