{"id":24029,"date":"2024-10-15T07:22:57","date_gmt":"2024-10-15T06:22:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=24029"},"modified":"2024-10-15T12:56:49","modified_gmt":"2024-10-15T11:56:49","slug":"health-wellbeing-covid-flu-jabs-autumn-winter-24","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=24029","title":{"rendered":"HEALTH & WELLBEiNG: Covid & Flu Jabs, Autumn\/Winter, \u201824"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Most years since I\u2019ve been having flu and Covid jabs they\u2019ve not been too troublesome. At worst a little ache at the injection site. This year? Holy cow\u2026 I feel utterly<\/em> appalling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And it\u2019s not just physical. It\u2019s made me ultra depressed. And it\u2019s affected my sleeping patterns. Lasf night was a real struggle to get through. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Since a few hours after the Covid jab, around 10.45 am, I\u2019ve felt aches and pains, a general ickiness – uncomfortable in my own skin (one\u2019s own flesh kind of crawls!?) – a headache, continued coughing (this latter poss\u2019 a legacy from my previous and ongoing respiratory stuff\/colds?), unreal <\/em>exhaustion coupled with a hyperactive mind, and profound anxiety. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Truly and deeply \u2018orrible!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Reading about it online this morning suggests it\u2019s quite a normal response. And poss\u2019 a good sign; my body is fighting the infection, producing antibodies, etc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

But as someone whose everyday baseline health has been a state of physical and mental war with oneself, for most of my life, the desire for equilibrium – peace and good health, etc. – grows ever stronger. And, perhaps counter intuitively? The threshold of tolerance might in fact decrease. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Up to a point the constant ill health develops a tolerance. Beyond that point? One starts to get fed up of feeling fed up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thank goodness for Teresa. I went downstairs to tidy up a bit – my mind was freaking out (about clutter in particular!) – and try and sleep on a sofa. Being upstairs, in our bed I was simply getting more and more wound up. Our room seemed to smell very<\/em> weird, and very<\/em> strongly so\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sometime around 2 am we were all downstairs, Teresa and Antonio using the loo, me on the couch. Teresa persuaded me to go back to bed. And she gave me a long back massage, which helped me get to sleep. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thanks, my love!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tragically my mental state is so volatile and fragile that episodes like this are potentially life-threatening. I\u2019m so fed up with being fed up my mind immediately goes to \u2018how do I end it all\u2019 trains of thought. Sadly these trains run all too frequently, in my head. Not good!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was reading about hanging – medical studies on how suicide-attempters view it, and suchlike – and seriously contemplating heading down the garden for a third attempt. Sheesh\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I wound up missing my afternoon shift yesterday. Whether that was a good or bad thing I really don\u2019t know. But I do<\/em> know I feel so shite now, I won\u2019t be booking any work today. A day of rest is indicated. I believe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t look forward to that, to be honest. As activity, and especially my current work, is one of the things keeping me together. I really did think, last night, that I was falling to bits. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m very glad that hasn\u2019t happened. And – tho\u2019 I\u2019m not religious – I \u2018pray\u2019, fervently, that I\u2019ll get better, ASAP.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s 7.15 am. Antonio\u2019s out, on one of his super-early swimming sessions, at the local pool. Teresa\u2019s just left to catch the train to work. I\u2019m in bed. Totally shattered, typing this. And hoping for a swift recovery.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thanks also to Teresa for a nice hot cup of cream of tomato soup. Where would I be without her? Dead and gone, I reckon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Later\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Well, I got off an hour long chat with The Samaritans. Thank goodness they exist! It\u2019s great to be able to talk to someone who is supportive and non-judgemental. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Then I made myself some lunch: mango and kiwi, followed by a cheesy baguette (Red Leicester!). With a cup of Valerian tea. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And, whether this a a good idea or not I don\u2019t know, but I have booked a short shift, 2-3.30 pm. Having missed a shift yesterday, I really<\/em> need the money! I just hope my mind and body are up to the work?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Most years since I\u2019ve been having flu and Covid jabs they\u2019ve not been too troublesome. At worst a little ache at the injection site. This year? Holy cow\u2026 I feel utterly appalling. And it\u2019s not just physical. It\u2019s made me ultra depressed. And it\u2019s affected my sleeping patterns. Lasf night was a real struggle to … <\/p>\n

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