{"id":9596,"date":"2023-07-01T03:42:58","date_gmt":"2023-07-01T02:42:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=9596"},"modified":"2023-07-01T16:15:12","modified_gmt":"2023-07-01T15:15:12","slug":"insomnia-faaarggh","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sebpalmer.com\/blog\/?p=9596","title":{"rendered":"INSOMNiA: Faaarggh!!!!"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Even taking a zopiclone tablet, which I spent about 90 minutes getting, via a hellish call to 111, in the middle of another sleepless night (the night before this!), and which last time I took them knocked me out, is failing to help me sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t want to wake the neighbours. But I do want to scream. Ffffaaaarrrgggghhhin\u2019 Hell!<\/em><\/strong> This insomnia shit is really<\/em> getting quite f*cked up!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The percentage of my week that\u2019s being affected by this keeps growing. About two weeks back it was once or twice a week. Then it escalated to three or four nights a week. Right now it\u2019s every<\/em> goddamn night!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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There\u2019s been a long break since I last took zopiclone. And even then I only took three. All individually, and all several days apart. That was several months back. So it ought not be that I\u2019ve become accustomed to it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This waking hell has caused a slight blip in my abstinence campaign. I\u2019ve managed to stay of the booze. But I\u2019ve slipped – only in a. very minor way – in a couple of other areas. It\u2019s the sheer boredom and frustration of trying to make it through the night. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

But any laxity – I love Oscar Wilde\u2019s \u2018I can resist everything but temptation\u2019 – can either be very damaging to morale and\/or resolve, in itself, or can be the start of a more complete collapse, or snowball effect. Using the words in a strictly secular sense, I devoutly pray <\/em>that I remain strong!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Once again I\u2019ve only been prescribed three zopiclone pills (same as last time). They look like this:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The temptation to pop another zop is very<\/em> strong. I just want to sleep! At night. You know, when we\u2019re supposed to. Otherwise a great deal of missed night time sleep winds up happening in the day. And that hampers my ability to function as a properly active and responsible adult. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Even taking a zopiclone tablet, which I spent about 90 minutes getting, via a hellish call to 111, in the middle of another sleepless night (the night before this!), and which last time I took them knocked me out, is failing to help me sleep. I don\u2019t want to wake the neighbours. But I do … <\/p>\n

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